Clear for take off

In the last week I've had an FSH blood test and a hysteroscopy to make sure that I'm not suffering from any new complications since it has been a long time since I've done a work-up. I got the call last week that my hormones are A-OK, and today I got to see for myself that that my uterus is looking pretty during the hysteroscopy. What's next? Just a follow-up/planning session, a med order, and a period. Then, frozen embryo transfer, here we come!

The hysteroscopy is something that a lot of people dislike. I would put it on par with having a pap smear. The speculum is very uncomfortable, but it was removed as soon as the scope was in place. After that, you can just watch the monitor in amazement as your doctor points out the pin point holes that are your tubes. It's pretty cool. A little leakage and very mild cramping are the only side effects.

I'm feeling pretty stressed out right now, which I think is a combination of a lot of factors. A good friend of mine is going through a divorce, Wisebaby is turning one and getting ear tubes, we are getting our windows replaced and they keep pushing back the date, and then there is the make or break feeling of unfreezing our one and only embryo for the transfer. I had a pretty big melt down yesterday when I dropped Wisebaby's smash cake and destroyed the icing job before his birthday party. My husband saved the day, again, some more, but I think it was a good indicator that I'm more stressed than I would like and that I was letting myself think. I'm going to keep doing my yoga and trying to relax because I want to be a happy, healthy body for our frozen Wisebaby.

Anyway, that isn't my most well-conceived blog post--fertility pun intended--but, then again, we all just conceive however we can!

We figured we had one on ice.

"Hey, y'all! Good to see you! Doesn't it seem like you were just here?" asks the male Dr. B.

"It's crazy, but we're back," I reply. "We figured we had one on ice."

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That was the start of our next leg of the Quest for Wisebaby journey. It was maybe a little more lighthearted than our last IVF cycle, and definitely more light-hearted than the earth shattering news that got the whole ball rolling that culminated with our first IVF cycle.

We went in yesterday to talk about doing a frozen embryo transfer, FET, with Frostie, Wisebaby's lone surviving embryo sibling. Frostie was recently dubbed "Austin Powers" by a colleague who finds the idea of an bundle of human cells lying in a freezer, cryopreserved, a little funny. It's been helping me keep things light.

Anyway, the fruits of the appointment are this:
(1) Screening tests in July
(2) Drugs and FET in August
(3) Possibly a May 2015 baby
(4) FET is indeed a fraction of the cost of IVF with ICSI ($300 for meds instead of $3000, $3000 in medical and laboratory fees instead of $12000)
(5) The male Dr. B's bedside manner is still shitty, but he still respects my OB, Dr. B, and has a great track record.
(6) They're using electronic medical records now. Cool?
(7) I'm still on the hook for Lovenox shots for blood clotting. That sucks, but what can you do?

After the appointment, Wisehubby and I went to dinner to celebrate our seventh wedding anniversary and discuss the road forward. We both feel at peace going into this FET in a way that we didn't--or maybe couldn't?--feel during our last two trips towards an embryo transfer. We know that we have just one embryo to transfer, and that our track record gives that embryo just 2 in 5 odds of turning into a pregnancy and 1 in 5 odds of turning into a live birth. Those are shitty odds, and so we must face the possibility that we're about to spend $3300 to be disappointed again.

Why are we at peace then? Well, with an amazing Wisebaby in our lives, eleven months old and charming the pants off of us each day, we can lay this one more confidently in God's hands. We can pray for the expansion of our family or for peace if it is not meant to be. We can be happy being the three Wiseman, even if we'd be so full of joy to be the four Wiseman. It would mess up our Christmas cards, but it's a small price to pay. I promise we wouldn't sign it from Austin Powers.

19 Weeks

Every morning I wake up, say a little prayer, put my hand on my belly, and remember that my dreams are coming true. The bump is definitely growing; there is no denying that our quest for Wisebaby is more than halfway done.

Ok, so gestationally speaking, at 19 weeks 1 day, I am a few days shy of halfway, but our journey has been too long to count in weeks, so I feel more than half through.

Everyone keeps asking if I feel ok; the sonographer asked if we were always so calm. The truth is that even though we're 19 weeks into our pregnancy, everyday feels like a very special miracle, and all of the little annoying things about pregnancy don't even register when I'm watching my belly grow because of a little baby boy--that's right, it's a boy! I am too awestruck to be weepy or antsy. Just like on the day that Wisehubby proposed to me, I am mostly at a loss for the right words to describe the peace and happiness that God has brought into our lives as we begin to transition our lives into their next incredible stage.

Speaking of the sonogram, we had our anatomy scan and everything about our little boy seems completely perfect. On our 19 week mark, he measured a little ahead of schedule, 19 weeks 4 days, weighing in at 11 ounces. His head is on my left side, and he is lying on his back. There are four chambers in his heart, he's got a brain growing strong, his kidneys are there, the stomach is clear, and his cord blood is flowing properly. He's got two arms and legs, ten fingers and ten toes. He used his little hand to wave at us and then he stuck out his tongue. We could even see his little face. We're completely in love with this little guy, and all we've see of him have been a few grainy pictures and a glamour shot of him way back when he was growing in the petri dish.

Now that I've written this post, maybe I'll not have to touch my belly tomorrow morning to check to see if this all is real or not. I doubt it though; it is nice to have a reminder that your dreams are coming true.

Post-script: We're also 189 shots in! Sweet Wisebaby is worth every prick.

An Ace in the Hole

We've been calling our Wisembies Ace and Base over the last few weeks, and today we got to see for sure if one or both of them stuck.

Our sonographer was running behind, so it was maybe more hurried than we had anticipated because I needed to get back to my school by 1:05 for my sixth period class. She did give me a big hug and a congratulations, which felt so real and genuine  Wisehubby and I both agree that she is by far the best part of our fertility clinic.

Anyway, the big news is that we have an Ace in the hole! One of our Wisembies implanted and flourished. We were exactly 7 weeks today, but little Ace is measuring 7 weeks 1 day, and his heart rate (131.58) is very strong. We could see his heart beating with no problem, and it was crazy that we could see the yolk sack and umbilical cord distinct from Ace's little blobby body. He measured 10.81 millimeters long!

We feel like we've been playing the long game and have finally scored; it is amazing to see that something you have chased after for so long is truly coming to fruition. We know that the weeks and months ahead of us are long, and uncertain, but we're excited for this next phase in our quest for Wisebaby!

BFP! BFP! BFP! BFP! BFP!

So, I swore to Wisesister when she went with me to CVS to buy pregnancy tests that I wouldn't be that crazy lady who tortured herself by taking a million pregnancy tests. It turns out that I lied.

Sunday was six days past transfer, and by 5 PM I couldn't stop myself from peeing on a stick. Luckily, I was rewarded with a nice pink line. It's faint in the picture, but I swear it is there. It is about half as dark as the control line. I repeated my tests in the afternoon on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. The only day that was really crazy to do was Wednesday, since I had already gotten the call from my RE that we were BFP according to the blood test. My HCG was 112, so that's good according to the nurse--I have zero frame of reference on this one.

Tuesday did freak me out because the line faded visibly from Monday, but I'm ninety percent sure it was because I chugged some water in order to try to pee again in a short period of time. I was done in by my over-hydration.

Since the only experiences that I've ever had with conceiving have ended with a BFN or a chemical pregnancy, I'm feeling decidedly anxious. However, always a believer in positive thinking, I am just chanting to myself BFP! BFP! BFP! all day long as I anxiously await the results from my beta HCG tomorrow to see if things are indeed rising the way they should.

Join me now: BFP! BFP! BFP! BFP! BFP!

Injecting the crazy - Side effects

I started stimulating with injectable hormones last night, and have already given my dosage for tonight. Last year, I took Lupron in the mornings and Follistim in the evenings. This year, my protocol is Lupron in the mornings, Follistim and Menopur in the evenings, and Lovenox at bed time. I suppose that I could switch Lovenox to the evening time period, but man, it burns like hell and I don't think I could stomach it as shot number three.

Here are my feelings so far on side effects:

• Lupron (prevents ovulation) - Though everyone on message boards bitches about Lupron headaches, I don't know if I've ever gotten one. I get sinus headaches all the time, so there could have been many a Lupron headache lurking in disguise that I just attributed to other things. I can tell you that my left eye has been twitching, but I don't think that has to do with the hormones so much as the stress.
• Follistim (stimulates ovaries) - Last year I took this and my only effect was really heavy, sore ovaries, which is the intended effect. It's not comfortable, but it is what I signed up for.
• Menopur (stimulates ovaries) - Everyone on the internets complains about how it burns, but these people have clearly never taken Lovenox. I did have the most amazing nausea and stabbing stomach pains this morning, which I am chalking up to the Menopur, as I did not experience this last year. It was so bad that I went to our school nurse to get my temperature taken, worried that I'd contracted a virus. Nope, it was just all the crazy I've been injecting into my system. "Oh, well, it's the new medicine I am on, I suppose," I tell the nurse. 
• Lovenox (prevents blood clots) - HOLY MOTHER OF WHATEVER! Have I complained about this to you yet? No? Well, let me rectify the situation. Lovenox is the devil shot. It is putting me off of shots all together, which is not good. Not only does it stab like a @#$%@# when you inject it, but once you finish it burns and aches for a good thirty minutes while the medicine creeps slowly around your abdomen. Enjoy! I had to tell my friend, Dr. B the hematologist, that he should give it a try sometime before he decides to prescribe it again. It is pure evil. "I'm so glad that I found out that I have a genetic blood disorder," said no one ever.

Today, I felt pretty normal, but after my second injection, I immeadiately felt my ovaries. It is a very distinct feeling, this noticing an organ that you don't normally notice, so it could just be the medicine I'm injecting, or it could be that I'm injecting a dose of crazy. Only time will tell.

Thirty-two Shots and Counting

I'm thirty-two shots into this IVF cycle, and we still haven't started stimulation. It's just making me really tired; the stress is exhausting and both Lovenox and Lupron list tiredness as common side effects.  In fact, if you Google Lovenox, two suggested searches are, "Lovenox burns like hell," and "Lovenox fog". I have spent a disturbing amount of time in the last week since I started Lupron in combination with Lovenox staring at my computer screen, attempting to will my brain to work productively.

I've stopped the birth control pills, so I should start my period tomorrow or Friday. Once I do, I can set up a plan for when to start stimulating with Menopur and Follistim, putting my daily shot count up to 4. I was looking over my timeline from last year, and it looks like we'll have the retrieval and transfer in about three weeks.

Sorry this one is not a witty or even compelling post. Just sitting here letting the Lovenox burn like hell and put my brain in a non-witty fog.

What's the plan, Stan?

Yesterday we had our final meeting of Dr. B(alls). Wisehubby will continue to go to him to be monitored for his hormone therapy, but we have beaten down the limited doors available to us on the male fertility end. Dr B(alls) admitted that although so many things have improved for Wisehubby--his ratio of estrogen to testosterone, count, motility, density--the morphology issue is likely to remain a permanent one, even with an otherwise mostly successful varicocele repair. He says that Wisehubby's case still indicates IVF with ICSI, and referred us back to our reproductive endocrinologist (RE).

I think Wisehubby is still disappointed that he went through so much pain and suffering, and we are still in the same place we were a year ago. I get the sense that he sees this as his problem that I must pay for with my body undergoing harsh procedures. Of course, that's not how I see the whole thing--it's OUR problem that we must work towards fixing through every possible treatment--but my opinion is neither here nor there.

Wisehubby is dreading the return of the twice daily sticks and frequent transvaginal ultrasounds because he loves me dearly and would gladly go through varicocele repair again if meant that he could spare me the pain and discomfort. Fortunately, after eight years together, I love him more deeply than ever, so I am down right eager for the twice daily sticks and frequent transvaginal ultrasounds because I know that the pain and discomfort is something that I can do to help us both achieve our dream of a family of three (or maybe even more!).

That brings me to today, where we met with our RE, the male Dr. B, to plan for our second IVF cycle. He remembered that we're both teachers, and made a point to honor our time and financial limitations in the creation of our plan. He spent time carefully reviewing the spreadsheet of medicine that Wisehubby had compiled so as to not spend money on unnecessary prescriptions; he "donated" some progesterone gel to us. We felt better about his bedside manner this time around, but maybe we're just used to his gruff, matter-of-fact nature. Maybe we were just so ready for a new plan that we over looked his less pleasant features.

So, what's the plan, Stan?

Our new plan will start with a fresh mock transfer, an ultrasound procedure done with a full bladder. There was a looming threat of some sort of uterine "stretching" which I hope does not come to bear. After that, it will be a waiting game for my next menstrual cycle, where I have my blood drawn for my FSH levels and then start on birth control to regulate my strangely short periods, and blood thinners to protect me from blood clots from my Factor V disorder. About three weeks later, I will start lupron to prevent ovulation. At the onset of my second menstrual cycle from now, I will stop birth control and start two different daily stimulation injections. We're going lower and slower with the dosing this time to avoid the hyper stimulation that lead to the removal of many immature eggs that did not lead to good, healthy embryos. After about ten days of stimulation, I will stop the lupron and blood thinners, and take one shot to trigger egg maturation. 36 hours later, the male Dr. B will remove about 15 eggs (the sweet spot amount) for fertilization in the lab, via needle. At that time, I'll start back on the blood thinners and add vaginal progesterone gel to my regimen--no progesterone in oil this time! Huzzah! Hopefully, about a week and a half later, a blood test will confirm that I am pregnant, and we will begin to plan for a pregnancy and then for a baby.

Did you follow all of that? Can you keep track? No? Honestly, I'm impressed that I can follow it myself.

My suggestion? Stay tuned to my Twitter and blog for updates as we go! If I've learned anything, it is that our quest for Wisebaby is full of twists, turns, and surprises. Let's just hope that this fall, we don't have our house coming down on top of us!

Seven Months Post-Op Visit

We visited with Dr. B(alls) a while ago about Wisehubby's latest semen analysis at his seven month post-varicocele repair visit. The news was mildly more encouraging than last time. Wisehubby's numbers have bounced in most of the major categories into a normal range. Only his morphology is holding on at a big, fat goose egg.

As a reminder, morphology is the shape of the sperm and is important because it can effect the sperm's ability to penetrate reach and penetrate the egg. A man only needs his normal count to be 4% or greater to be considered fertile, so the standard is set pretty low. Unfortunately, 0% normal morphology is considered to be just about terrible; you get a "Do not pass Go; report straight to IVF with ICSI" card when those are your results.

Dr. B(alls) counseled again that we be patient, as we were seeing improvement in Wisehubby's numbers, but the wait is not too far off at this point. He is hopeful that we may be able to get Wisehubby's normal morphology up to .5% or even 1%, which could mean less painful, invasive, and expensive ART treatments. How great would it be if we could do an IUI instead of IVF with ICSI?

We're not really hopeful that things are going to get much better; we are prepared mentally, emotionally, and financially for another round of IVF.  However, the increase in the rest of his numbers does at least make us feel as though the decision to pursue the varicocele repair was the right one. As Dr. B(alls) pointed out, science does not yet know what makes the inside of one sperm more viable than another when creating an embryo. Since we were able to improve quantifiable things about Wisehubby's little swimmers, then maybe the crazy mutants are healthier now than they used to be! This could help us have a more successful batch of embryos; we might even get to freeze a few. This could also help the transferred Wisebabies implant successfully, something that did not happen with our first round of IVF.

All in all, we are in a better place now than we were in a year ago. Yes, IVF is still looming on the horizon, but we're older, wiser, and varicocele free.

Complete Quest For Wisebaby Timeline

I'm going to simplify my time line that is in my sidebar, but I want to keep track of my shots (42 for IVF 1, 368 for IVF 2) and countless other sticks, prods, and procedures.

April 2009--Quit birth control
May 2010--Actively started TTC
November 7, 2010--Positive pregnancy test
November 17, 2010--Miscarriage
June 2011--OB/GYN visit regarding our struggles TTC, referral to RE
June 2011--Blood tests for Wiselady, normal
June 2011--Sperm analysis for Wisehubby, abnormal morphology
June 2011--HSG for Wiselady, normal
July 2011--Meeting with RE, discuss IUI and IVF with ICSI
August 2011--Second sperm analysis, low-count, low motility, and low morphology, Meeting with RE, IUI ruled out, IVF with ICSI plan developed
August 2011--Office hysteroscopy for Wiselady, normal
August 2011--Transvaginal sonogram for Wiselady, normal
September 2011--Mock transfer for Wiselady, normal
October 3, 2011--CD 21, Start IVF cycle with transvaginal sonogram (two small cysts on right ovary) and lupron start appointment for Wiselady
October 4, 2011--CD 22, Lupron injection
October 5, 2011--CD 23, Lupron injection
October 6, 2011--CD 24, Lupron injection
October 7, 2011--CD 25, Lupron injection
October 8, 2011--CD 26, Lupron injection
October 9, 2011--CD 27, Lupron injection
October 10, 2011--CD 28, Lupron injection
October 11, 2011--CD 1, Lupron injection
October 12, 2011--CD 2, Lupron injection
October 13, 2011--CD 3, Lupron injection
October 14, 2011--CD 4, Lupron injection
October 15, 2011--CD 5, Lupron injection
October 16, 2011--CD 6, Lupron injection, Follistim injection
October 17, 2011--CD 7, Lupron injection, Follistim injection
October 18, 2011--CD 8, Lupron injection, Follistim injection
October 19, 2011--CD 9, Lupron injection, transvaginal sonogram and blood work for Wiselady, 17 follicles on left ovary, 17 follicles on right ovary, blood work good, dosage lowered, Follistim injection
October 20, 2011--CD 10, Lupron injection, Follistim injection
October 21, 2011--CD 11, Lupron injection, transvaginal sonogram and blood work for Wiselady, a lot of ripe follies on both ovaries, Follistim injection
October 22, 2011--CD 12, Lupron injection, transvaginal sonogram and blood work for Wiselady (both on target) , Follistim injection
October 23, 2011--CD 13, Lupron injection, Follistim injection
October 24, 2011--CD 14, Lupron injection, transvaginal sonogram and blood work for Wiselady (both on target), date set for egg retrieval, Ovidrel injection aka the trigger shot
October 25, 2011--CD 15, A rare day off--no meds. no appointments!!
October 26, 2011--CD 16, 33 eggs retrieved, 25 eggs fertilized, Wiselady's 26th half-birthday
October 27, 2011--CD 17, 1 DPR, 15 embryos growing, our wait begins
October 28, 2011--CD 18, 2 DPR, progesterone injection
October 29, 2011--CD 19, 3 DPR, 2 progesterone injections b/c Wisehubby mistakenly drew only 1/2 mg and didn't notice before he stuck me, 4 excellent embryos, 7 good embryos, 2 average embryos, and 2 poor embryos
October 30, 2011--CD 20, 4 DPR, progesterone injection
October 31, 2011--CD 21, Embryo Transfer of two beautiful embies, progesterone injection
November 1, 2011--1 DPT, progesterone injection, bed rest, no embryos for freezing
November 2, 2011--2 DPT, progesterone injection, AM bed rest, back to work
November 3, 2011--3 DPT, progesterone injection
November 4, 2011--4 DPT, progesterone injection
November 5, 2011--5 DPT, progesterone injection
November 6, 2011--6 DPT, progesterone injection, HPT BFN
November 7, 2011--7 DPT, progesterone injection, HPT BFN
November 8, 2011--8 DPT, progesterone injection, HPT BFN, Spotting
November 9, 2011--9 DPT, progesterone injection, pregnancy blood test, BFN, official fail/end of IVF w/ICSI #1
November 13, 2011--CD 1, first period after failed IVF cycle
November 28, 2011--WTF appointment with RE, no real answers
December 19, 2011--Follow-up with the urologist, decided to do varicocele repair surgery on Wisehubby, seven vials of blood drawn to check Wiselady for autoimmune disorders
December 28, 2011--Varicocele repair for Wisehubby
January 2, 2011--Emergency follow-up for Wisehubby, things don't look "normal" on one side, but Dr. B(alls) thinks that his testicles are functional
January 9, 2011--Post-op with Dr. B(alls), normal recovery on L, abnormal and slow recovery on R, things are improving
January 31, 2012--Follow-up with Dr. B(alls), abnormal recovery, but function is fine
February 22, 2012--Wiselady diagnosed with Factor V clotting disorder
April 10, 2012--Wisehubby is put into a holding pattern because of no improvement post-varicocele repair.
July 7, 2012--Wisehubby's semen analysis shows normal counts in all measures except morphology, which is still 0% normal. Holding pattern continues.
September 5, 2012--Wisehubby's final semen analysis leads to this advice from his urologist, "At this point, I've done all that I can. I'm sending you back to the male Dr. B with the recommendation of IVF with ICSI."
September 5, 2012--IVF Planning meeting with RE
September 18, 2012--Mock transfer and cervical dilation
September 25, 2012--CD 1
September 26, 2012--CD 2, FSH blood test, birth control pill, lovenox injection
September 27, 2012--CD 3, birth control pill, lovenox injection
September 28, 2012--CD 4, birth control pill, lovenox injection, a visit to the hospital to welcome my nephew into the world!
September 29, 2012--CD 5, birth control pill, lovenox injection
September 30, 2012--CD 6, birth control pill, lovenox injection
October 1, 2012--CD 7, birth control pill, lovenox injection
October 2, 2012--CD 8, birth control pill, lovenox injection
October 3, 2012--CD 9, birth control pill, lovenox injection
October 4, 2012--CD 10, birth control pill, lovenox injection
October 5, 2012--CD 11, birth control pill, lovenox injection
October 6, 2012--CD 12, birth control pill, lovenox injection
October 7, 2012--CD 13, birth control pill, lovenox injection
October 8, 2012--CD 14, birth control pill, lupron injection, transvaginal ultrasound, lovenox injection
October 9, 2012--CD 15, birth control pill, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 10, 2012--CD 16, birth control pill, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 11, 2012--CD 17, birth control pill, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 12, 2012--CD 18, birth control pill, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 13, 2012--CD 19, birth control pill, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 14, 2012--CD 20, birth control pill, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 15, 2012--CD 21, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 16, 2012--CD 22, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 17, 2012--CD 23, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 18, 2012--CD 1, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 19, 2012--CD 2, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 20, 2012--CD 3, lupron injection, lovenox injection
October 21, 2012--CD 4, lupron injection, menopur injection, follistim injection, lovenox injection
October 22, 2012--CD 5, lupron injection, menopur injection, follistim injection, lovenox injection
October 23, 2012--CD 6, lupron injection, menopur injection, follistim injection, lovenox injection
October 24, 2012--CD 7, lupron injection, transvaginal ultrasound, 12 follicles growing in each ovary, blood draw, follistim injection, menopur injection, lovenox injection
October 25, 2012--CD 8, lupron injection, menopur injection, follistim injection, lovenox injection
October 26, 2012--CD 9, lupron injection, transvaginal ultrasound, blood draw, menopur injection, follistim injection, lovenox injection
October 27, 2012--CD 10, lupron injection, transvaginal ultrasound, blood draw, follistim injection, lovenox injection
October 28, 2012--CD 11, lupron injection, follistim injection, lovenox injection
October 29, 2012--CD 12, lupron injection, transvaginal ultrasound, blood draw, ovidrel injection
October 30, 2012--CD 13, a rare day off!
October 31, 2012--CD 14, retrieval of 19 eggs, lovenox injection
November 1, 2012--CD 15, 19 eggs were mature and fertilized using ICSI, 13 show signs of growth today, lovenox injection
November 2, 2012--CD 16, crinone gel, lovenox
November 3, 2012--CD 17, crinone gel, lovenox, 8 excellent, 2 good, and 3 poor embryos
November 4, 2012--CD 18, crinone gel, lovenox
November 5, 2012--CD 19, transferred one AA blastocyst and one AB blastocyst, lovenox, bedrest
November 6, 2012--CD 20, 1 DPT, crinone gel, lovenox, bedrest
November 7, 2012--CD 21, 2 DPT, crinone gel, morning bedrest, lovenox
November 8, 2012--CD 22, 3 DPT, crinone gel, lovenox
November 9, 2012--CD 23, 4 DPT, crinone gel, lovenox
November 10, 2012--CD 24, 5 DPT, crinone gel, lovenox
November 11, 2012--CD 25, 6 DPT, crinone gel, lovenox, POAS BFP!
November 12, 2012--CD 26, 7 DPT, crinone gel, lovenox, POAS STILL BFP!
November 13, 2012--CD 27, 8 DPT, crinone gel, lovenox, POAS SERIOUSLY BFP!
November 14, 2012--CD 28, 9 DPT, crinone gel, pregnancy blood test BFP! (112 HCG), lovenox, POAS for fun
November 15, 2012--10 DPT, crinone gel, lovenox
November 16, 2012--11 DPT, crinone gel, beta blood test (260!), lovenox
November 17, 2012--12 DPT, crinone gel, lovenox
November 18, 2012--13 DPT crinone gel, lovenox
November 19, 2012--14 DPT crinone gel, lovenox
November 20, 2012--15 DPT crinone gel, lovenox
November 21, 2012--16 DPT crinone gel, lovenox
November 22, 2012--17 DPT crinone gel, lovenox
November 23, 2012--18 DPT crinone gel, lovenox
November 24, 2012--19 DPT crinone gel, lovenox
November 25, 2012--20 DPT crinone gel, lovenox
November 26, 2012--21 DPT crinone gel, lovenox
November 27, 2012--22 DPT crinone gel, lovenox
November 28, 2012--6 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox
November 29, 2012--6 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox
November 30, 2012--6 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox
December 1, 2012--6 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox
December 2, 2012--6 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox
December 3, 2012--6 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 4, 2012--6 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 5, 2012--7 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, obstetrical ultrasound (heart rate 131 BPM and measuring 10.58 mm), lovenox

December 6, 2012--7 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 7, 2012--7 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 8, 2012--7 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 9, 2012--7 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 10, 2012--7 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 11, 2012--7 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 12, 2012--8 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 13, 2012--8 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 14, 2012--8 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 15, 2012--8 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 16, 2012--8 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 17, 2012--8 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 18, 2012--8 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 19, 2012--9 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, first visit with my obstetrician, vaginal exam and culture, lovenox
December 20, 2012--9 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, visit to my GP for an upper respiratory infection, Z-pack, nasal spray, lovenox

December 21, 2012--9 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, Z-pack, nasal spray, lovenox

December 22, 2012--9 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, Z-pack, nasal spray, lovenox

December 23, 2012--9 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, Z-pack, nasal spray, lovenox

December 24, 2012--9 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, Z-pack, nasal spray, lovenox

December 25, 2012--9 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 26, 2012--10 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 28, 2012--10 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 29, 2012--10 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 30, 2012--10 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

December 31, 2012--10 weeks pregnant! crinone gel, lovenox

January 1, 2013--10 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 2, 2013--11 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 3, 2013--11 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 4, 2013--11 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 5, 2013--11 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 6, 2013--11 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 7, 2013--11 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 8, 2013--11 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 9, 2013--12 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 10, 2013--12 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 11, 2013--12 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 12, 2013--12 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 13, 2013--12 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 14, 2013--12 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 15, 2013--12 weeks pregnant! lovenox

January 16, 2013--13 weeks pregnant! Trip to OB, first doppler (148 BPM), blood draw (anemic), lovenox

January 17-22, 2013--13 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
January 23-29, 2013--14 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
January 30-February 5, 2013--15 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
February 6-12, 2013--16 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
February 13, 2013--17 weeks pregnant! Trip to OB, doppler (142 BPM), lovenox  and iron
February 14-19, 2013--17 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
February 20-26, 2013--18 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
February 27, 2013--19 weeks pregnant! Trip to sonographer (11 ounces, 142 BPM, it's a boy!), lovenox and iron
February 28-March 5, 2013--19 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
March 6-12, 2013--20 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
March 13-19, 2013--21 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
March 18, 2013--OB appointment, 148 BPM
March 20-26, 2013--22 Weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
March 27-April 2, 2013--23 Weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
April 3-9, 2013--24 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
April 10-16, 2013--25 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
April 17-23, 2013--26 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
April 18, 2013--OB appointment, 150 BPM, glucose test (good), blood test (anemic)
April 23, 2013--Bizarre headache with sparkles in vision and speech aphasia, resolves itself
April 24-30, 2013--27 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
May 1-7, 2013--28 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
May 6, 2013--Second bizarre headache sends us to the emergency room where we learn that baby is doing great
May 8-14, 2013--29 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
May 8, 2013--Neurologist confirms that bizarre headaches are just weird migraines.
May 15-21, 2013--30 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
May 16, 2013--OB appointment, 132 BPM
May 22-28, 2013--31 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
May 29-June 4, 2013--32 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
May 30, 2013--OB appointment, 134 BPM
June 5-11, 2013--33 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
June 12-18, 2013--34 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
June 13, 2013--OB appointment, 146 BPM
June 19-25, 2013--35 weeks pregnant! daily lovenox shots and iron
June 26, 2013--Start of maternity leave because the school year finally wraps up
June 26-July 2, 2013--36 weeks pregnant! twice daily heparin shots and iron
June 27, 2013--OB appointment, cervical exam, head down, 1-2 cm dialated, 80% effaced, guessed to weigh 6 lbs.
June 28, 2013--lost mucus plug and packed suitcase, started heparin
July 3-7, 2013--37 weeks pregnant! twice daily heparin shots and iron
July 8, 2013--37 weeks 5 days pregnant! one heparin shot, iron, 10:45 AM doctor's visit, 4 cm dialated, 90% effaced, 4:15 PM water breaks, 10:15 PM delivery of a healthy baby boy
July 9-August 19, 2013--First 6 weeks as a mommy! daily lovenox shots
June 16, 2014--FET planning meeting

July 2, 2014--FSH blood test, normal

July 7, 2014--Hysteroscopy, normal

July 21, 2014--Mock transfer for FET

July 28, 2014--Start FET cycle with estradiol and lovenox 

July 28-August 8, 2014--Daily estradiol pills and lovenox

August 8, 2014--Transvaginal sono

August 9-15, 2014--Daily estradiol pills, lovenox injection, and progesterone in oil injection

August 15, 2014--Frozen Embryo Transfer of one beautiful day 6 blast that had just started hatching

August 15-September 2, 2014--Daily estradiol pills, lovenox injection, and progesterone in oil injection

September 2, 2014--HSG Blood Test, levels good

September 4, 2014--HSG Blood Test, levels not rising fast enough

September 8, 2014--HSG Blood Test, levels not rising fast enough

September 10, 2014--Sono shows a slow growing gestational sack

September 24, 2014--Sono shows a fetus with no heart beat

September 2-24, 2014--Daily estradiol pills, lovenox injection, and progesterone in oil injection

September 25, 2014--Stop all medicine to invite miscarriage
September 29, 2014--Began to miscarry